Agent Steel wrote:Godstud why are you always disagreeing with me?
Actually, Godstud has some good points there.
Usually it was the women who bit into me the hardest. They noticed that I was nice and they found ways to get under my skin and hurt me. And it hurt, even lost my job twice due to bitchy, scheming women. I learned not to let people see my pain in public, they see that as weakness. I created a strong, confident, defiant front that I wear at work. I don't want to be pitied by anyone and I don't need it.
I have been a loner for decades. Who will pick me up when I fall? Who gives a shit if I cry? I pick myself up and I cry it out when I'm at home, behind closed doors. I cry, recover then continue fighting on. People can be so cold. I keep warmth in my heart and show my strength in public and I get by.
I have to be tough. I have to be responsible. My boss is not paying me to be a weakling. My parents did not raise me to be a weepy, emotional mess. My parents raised me to be independent, tenacious, hard-working, responsible, strong and determined. I can compete with any man in a battle of will and intelligence. I might not win, but I will give him a run for his money and he will see how tough and competitive I can be.