Dear Harmattan, Snapdragon, and Godstud, thank you for your support. I am back in Saudi now. I arrived yesterday.
I was so frightened of confronting my dad. But then I realized that I was being mean to him. I was like, I have to confront this fear.
So I did go to meet him last night in order to talk to him about my old job. I just wanted him to let out his anger and frustration in order to confront him and tell him that I am not going back. But guess what happened?
I tried to be nice and respectful in dealing with him. I was afraid he was gonna get angry at me and shout or threaten me. None of that happened. He simply accepted my new situation.
I told him I am not going back to that job, and that I have plenty of other job opportunities out there if I want to work. I told him that I had just gotten a job offer from a company recently before I travel to Malaysia (which is true) but I rejected it. And I told him that I am going to seek a new job soon.
He accepted the new situation. He didn't try to resist, like he used to before. I don't know why, but maybe it is just because I don't live in his house anymore (this is my hypothesis). And so I don't owe him anymore. Back then, when I used to live with him, he used to pressure me a lot about what I wanted to do in my life. But now, is it suddenly different? (I have just moved to this new apartment around a month and a half ago. I quit my job right after I moved here. I also started writing on this forum right after I moved here
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I didn't know this was going to be his reaction; I am quite surprised. I think I was drawing on my past experiences when I used to live in his house, and thought he was gonna treat me the same. I didn't know that now that I am living on my own, that he would suddenly respect my independence.
This is AMAZING! And I hope this lasts. (I am still paranoid that this was just a one in a life time incidence. I am afraid he might have been nice to me last night just because he was just feeling good or something. But I am willing to bet on the hypothesis that our relationship has changed because I have just moved out of his house.)
I was soooooooo terrified of him. I wanted to seek asylum in another country because I was afraid of my dad. But now I am glad they didn't grant me asylum. Maybe I can survive here the way I am without any asylum or anything.
p.s. my situation with my dad is very similar to the American War of Independence
I became independent now. So now my dad is going to respect my independence now, I guess. :P
It is true that I still need to find a source of funding for my mobile app. But it feels great to feel threatened in your way of life by your dad.